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Tough beginning 2019
Saturday, February 9, 2019
Apparently working in one of the Big4 now.Had to say.. Things aint exactly smooth for me? But life leaves you with no choices at times. Let's just say i got into a situation where.. There are quite a few things I have to learn from scratch after a few months where my colleagues probably are already familiar with it. Pros? Probably could avoid quite a few shitty jobs. Be ready for more negativity. January 2019 was a piece of shyt to be exact. Girl girl (doggy) got really sicked, but I am thankful to be given the chance to visit her a few times before she passed away on 31st January. I am relieved that she passed on which means no more pain but missed her deeply. She was one of my pillar of strength and I'm depressive af out of nowhere at times. I went to Planetshakers conference from 25th and came back on the 27th, in the midst of the trip I had to work and tbh didnt exactly enjoy my time in KL due to the distraction+stress. Probably due to fatigue and weak immune, had an infection that caused both my ears to be blocked the very next day. Ignored it and went on with work until Wednesday when I was driving halfway to work and had vertigo. Stopped at the roadside and had my parents bring me to the hospital. Was still laying in bed when I received the news that my beloved doggo finally went to heaven. Then CNY came. Was okay and then suddenly whole family decides to go on an oversea holiday without me. Cant hide the disappointment and I cant imagine how many things I'll have to miss out these few years due to this work. For people who advices other to go big4, suck that shyt up. Unless the individual has interest in sacrificing their years for experience, you should never push the advice. Experience brings money. Worth it? Depends on your priority. But if I die in these few years, I will certainly die with regrets. I cant even quit rn because my resume will look bad. Ughhh. Guess I have to live with that. Also, it's been a year but I still feel out of place in church. I don't feel belong and somewhat just don't feel comfortable around the people there. It's hard to be me, and I just dont click with them. I usually feel more comfortable being alone and solely went to know God better even though I started serving. Which is bad because going to church brings no difference from watching online service at home for me. Didn't mean to be this negative but hey give me some time and I'll try my best to heal :') Hope you guys are doing better and are happy okay!! God bless! Buhbyeee. |
Goodbye. Little Exits.
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