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Farewells and a note to YOU
Friday, September 4, 2015
Went to Paradise Hotel for District Governor's visit. Last year was more fun thou. 28th August Kevin's Farewell Party~ Was super tired thou, went for prayer service before that, rush home bath etc then pia go dy. Daryn Sir peli me about my weird colour match so I gotta explain myself here x( 
my pink shoes and blue dress :P hehe.. so weird!
31th August Went National Day Parade for the first time ever. Almost pengsan, so hot and dehydrated and lack of sleep and NAHH, it wasnt that bad :P 
groupfie.
As you can see, shorties like me have a hard time fitting into group pictures so I have this habit of ''NOTICE ME! I WANNA GET IN DA PICTA'' face while looking up and tiptoe. Juniors are like 'Heh, can u like get any taller?' and 'how old are you dy?' *smirks at your height #shortgirlsproblem  I chose this picture because I stood in front, the other picture.. hmm.. Too short to be seen. Poor Jing Kae can't be seen because of the angle *shrugs 1st September met up with Dei, Lala, Jan for food first then last min jio Eileen hahha kali pertama drove so far. But feel damn suang. 
THE DIM SUM GANG!
Kept feeling like dim sum gang got more than just us righttt? Hehehhe. One of us went home with a lot of invisible bullet holes thou. Sorry! But at a certain point of life, if something isnt right, it'll be good if someone tells you so right..? To YOU I went home and kept thinking again and again. It certainly isnt easy to be YOU, because you were so used to being picked on, teased on and maybe even bullied since young that you had this protective barrier now. You just laughed it off on anything ppl say that you think is negative and either try to change the topic or ignores and see what you want to see and hear only what you wanna hear. I reflected back on even the times when we were closer, you didnt really open up yourself to us. Or is it just me? I dont know. As time goes by, close friends tend to know each other better, how you think on certain things etc. (like Eileen) I could place myself on their perspective and see how life are but I never really know how you view life. Because when someone say hey isnt you her bestie? I guess I'm guilty then. I don't really know what you like. I don't know how you feel at a certain situation. All I knew is your birthday (obviously not enough) I used to stood up for you when people shoot you then turns back and shoot you myself because you always run around and annoys everyone. I used to just go with you when you're so clingy to me and now I usually just pushed you away. I used to nag at childish and stupid things that you do. I had to be honest, I dont understand why you wanna leave Malaysia so badly? Is it because your other friends in college, left overseas to study and you wanna be like them? Just to fit in? Is it because you wanna have a new life there? Is it because you wanna show off to other people? Is it because you envy those who gets to study overseas? Is it because you wanna break free from everyone and seek for freedom overseas? or even you, yourself dont understand why? Maybe because all of us left school, we didnt get to spend as much time as we did back then. Everyone focus on their own life more and those new people around them. But like you said "Good friends are like stars, you dont always see them but they are always there" So remember us, find us when you need someone to rely on. All of us are mean to criticize you, but sometimes, changes are necessary. I hope you'll grow more mature now. Just because other people study last minute doesn't mean it is the right thing to do. Know your limits. Work harder and smarter. You might need to work harder than others to achieve the same thing, but HEY! that's life. Don't come home too late. If you do, get your parent's permission. Dont just say "I will". Change now and prove it to your parents that you can do it. Not just because you say you will because ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS. Like that time you kept asking everyone during steamboat 'Hey do you need help?' and I nagged you to get your ass up to help if you really wanna help and you ended up just hitting me and do nothing till the end? YEAP.  We weren't trying to demotivate you about you dream. But rather to wake you up from your dream so you can make your dream a reality. I know you might be like 'Who are you guys to keep nagging me etc.' Well, I'll respect that because we're not your parents. But we did it because we cared. SINCERITY in friendship doesnt necessary mean giving gift on other's birthday because just calling/texting to see if other is okay on certain time meant more than that. Sorry for the things I didnt do for you. Sorry for the things we did that might have hurt you. Love you :) P.S I finally had a crush after so long xD Im proud of myself HAHA. But it's just a temporary one because it's just a crush :P Wanna put something light here after those heavy messages. Hehe. BUHBYE. God bless! -END |
Goodbye. Little Exits.
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