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8/3/2013
Friday, March 8, 2013
College is still the same. I didn't know we were starting new ''subject'' this fast thou.I mean.. 2 textbooks that are thicker than our SJ books are actually finished. The heck? -.- There are like so many friggin things to remember! OUCH my brain! but it was still okay~ Exam finishes on April's first week. You get the result after finishing the exam RIGHT AWAY! Cause it's Computer Based.. =.= *BA DUMP BA DUMP* i think that's how heartbeat sounds like.. I was thinking of smtg like THUMP THUMP or DUP DUP but it sounds weird.. HMM BTW we're starting 2 new subjects next week! -sighs.. Then exam's on June. IKR? -.- 2papers on April then 3 papers in June. HNG! Don't wanna care what's coming next. I can't believe it, but I'm totally having a really BAD-ass day yesterday. E a.k.a my close friend had turned my day to a really bad ones Out of my school life, the only time people argued with me was the one-and-only E Yesterday, she somehow was overstressed by her friggin multimedia presentation to the fact that she cried and lepaskan her geram on me. Not to make her sound bad but.. I don't know what I had did wrong =.= but I do have the responsibility on what happened. I think. 1. She kept on asking me for opinions and all.. to the fact that I really don't know how to answer her anymore. So I said, depends on you. I was expecting her to be independent enough to do it but she was thinking what she thought was okay ain't okay and not what we(group members) wants. So yeah, she used that word on me. ''Depends on me then no need change the whole thing la! Just give like that!'' The hell was that suppose to mean -.- If she thinks im not contributing as a group then why can't didnt ask the other group members and kept on asking me? 2. I said '' I have cooperate with lots of people before and yet never accounted things like this before, if others can do it, why can't you?'' And her answer was ''That is because everyone else was patient* with you'' OUCH :'( I know I can be really blur and stupid but seriously? It was just a silly multimedia, you could have done it and ask us to correct it to the way we like after you show us your almost complete work you know.. (Need to cut down lots of information from a full text information.. it is really difficult.. I understand..) 3. She said she doesn't want me to do most of the work myself and in the end make everyone else like very kesian me like that.. OUCH AGAIN. Dafuq? I had never ask people for pityness okay? I do need certain people's care but pity? Save it for yourself people! ZZZ In the end, yep, I apologize to her again. Maybe I made her pressured or something? I don't know but I did apologize for that thou. She was being the happy type again today. I just.. go with the flow? But my trust on her just, flow away like the water in the longkang. I'm sorry. AGAIN. I shall now distance myself from her starting today. I'm gonna be her friend but not that close ever again. Why? I'm gonna get phobia on humans soon T-T I am desperately needing a dog or a cat for a friend! I was thinking of renting a house somewhere where I can concentrate on my studies and of course! A pet. My parents said I can have a pet if I have my own house! >=) Maybe I can consider of getting that as a reward for my SPM result! (whatever the result is, I hope it's good enough to get what I'm needing now) I don't need internet or anything. I just wanna have time for myself. I felt really disappointed as there are nobody that I could actually shared my feelings with.. He can't understand what I'm going through on the time. I don't want him too anyway. He thinks i'll be okay soon. He always does. Not really what I need, but it sure does make me more independent and be more positive. But I wasn't okay at the moment so.. sighs* self-motivate myself to keep strong. My mum? She was in a bad mood. I told her I'm unhappy and she said something like ''You unhappy now then after I die only you happy LAHH?'' Trust me, it didn't help me at all. Anyway, life still goes on.. LALA T.T Was thinking of sharing with you de, but after all the stress from E and the project, I actually slept from 6pm-7.30am the next morning xD! So yeahh.. I MISS YOU too heh! Byeee. |
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